LIFE WITHOUT CHILDREN

This morning, capturing the pure essence of why I have children, my little four year woke me up in bed by whispering in my ear, "mommy, do you see how beautiful it is outside?" When people ask me if I love having children my answer is always conflicted. Honestly, I love having children. It is my vocation, my life, it is what I signed up for. There would be no magic for me without my children to show me the world through their eyes and helping me to understand the value of nature to a higher degree. They also bring back memories of how I viewed the world when I was little. They brought back a memory from when I must have been four of a Christmas tree that actually grew it's own candy.

A house without children would be, would be...quiet! I would die in a quiet house. Granted I could play the music I wanted to play without a nine year old DJ changing the songs. I could watch movies, listen to NPR and read without answering any questions. I would barely have to clean the house and my beloved objects wouldn't "got broke all by itself". There would be no Koala Bumpers stuck to our new, beautiful wood floors and no boogers or bottoms to wipe. I would not walk into a bathroom and find a dump the size of a large colon curled around the toilet. I could feel sexy and strut around the house in lingerie and lounge in erotic poses on all white furniture when the mood presented itself. I would have no unprocessed food in the house, I would sleep, and best of all I would share more intimate moments with my husband! I would mention more but I know that my little nieces read every blog I write and I don't want to shock them!

Without children my purpose may shift to something less valuable. I would see things differently and perhaps not so optimistically. I may not care so much about trying to revive our planet to ensure that my children will not suffer when I am gone. If I were asked if I would do it all over again knowing what I know now my answer would be....definitely. My husband, Wade's, answer might be slightly different.